HOW DID I GET HERE?

Man, I think I’ve been blessed with a lot in this life, but right now, it feels like Life is balancing itself out because maybe, I dunno, I’ve been too blessed? I’d compare it to let’s say, a country that was suffering with severe drought, and to replenish it’s soils, God made it rain for 50 days and 50 nights… I’m going through my 50 days n’ nites right now… In the blink of an eye, shits just started to take a negative turn. It’s hard to cope when you don’t have a lot of ‘real’ friends and ALL of your family live in different countries.

“All these generations later, and not one ancestor could have left me with something? I gotta start from ground zero?!” I saw someone say that on TikTok. Haha, truer words have never been spoken.

Mantra

I’ve gotta get rich, fuck this shit.

Friends and Social Media

I think the internets gotten to be such a weird place, Social media has to be the most anti social place at times. Unless you’re a beautiful or acceptionally handsome and even then, sometimes people get so offended by your beauty, as if you’re beautiful in the wrong way? I don’t get it at all. Close Friends on instagram is something else I don’t get at all, I have a few people on there and it’s like when I post on there or ask a question on there no one responds but when its a public story those same poeple will respond? Like I basically asked you privately you didn’t care, I then take it public now you remember your thumbs work? weird. I also don’t get people who watch your story and don’t get interact with your posts? Feels like people just wanna be able to say they know you but have no interests in what you wanna share or say. Personally I ain’t a punk or a beg, if you dont want to follow me, fuck off? I know its not that deep but I just find it weird watching people do their thing and acting like you didnt see it. Its funny, if I asses the people I thought were friends based on socials, a lot of these guys wouldn’t even make acquaintance. I hate myself for acting like them sometimes, but its only because they act like that towards me. Welcome to Social Media, EST. confusing relationships since 2005…

Algorithms

I can’t lie, I hate the algorithms on social media, Imagine slaving away to create something you love to show the world, just for it not to be pushed cause of some invisible judge called the algorithm? I used to love how Insta was about 6 years ago, now its like they force you to be a content creator, sometimes I don’t want to be that. I want to just be an artist, with no fucking gimmicks just a real… artist. I hate the algorithms man.